Growing up
Didn't expect adulting can be a lonely journey for someone. Why I do feel lonely? Am I really a pitiful person? Is being single a sign of uselessness? How busy I am with work but at the end of the day I feel so sad and empty. I have my family beside me and supportive friends but why I choose to be sad at the night? Every morning I force myself to smile but it's getting fade. I hate to stay with people but once I am alone, I keep overthinking about life. Why I keep comparing myself with others? I keep fighting with myself. My mind full of voice that downgrade me a lot. Try to ignore it but ended up I crying. I eat well, I sleep well, I rest well but why I feel like I become a zombie. Breathing but I am not living. "What should I do with my life?" The question that keeps lingering in my mind. To be honest, I am happy right now. I would rather laugh, even though my day was hectic. But again, why the sadness covers me like a blanket? "Let's be happy" I keep