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 macam dah lama tinggalkan blog ni tetiba harini macam terdetik nak menaip. sebelum ni, guna blog untuk meluah but sekarang fasa yang pendam je. nak luah tapi rasa not reasonable or think that others punya problem more worst compared to me. but I love how slowly I become more matured facing the world. even though, sometimes I do feeling down but its easily wash away once I wake up in the morning. so, aging is just another oppurtuniteies  for us growth wisely. working life, I do feels that this year giving a lot of patience test to me. every single day I keep repeating myself I want to resign but of course not gonna do that. I love my job. I love every weekday meeting anak-anak soleh but nahh to face their attitude every day? feeling want to headbanging my head at the walls. sometimes rasa macam apa ye aku buat ni? nak mendidik tapi kesabaran rendah tapi I do enjoy they growing up. like I saw their pace from zero and now slowly wujud sifat kendiri dalam diri. tapi, ya Allah the...

dudeeee it's been a long time tak update. I thought I want to update on August 2022 but times fly very fast and I can't catch up everything. Why this world moving too fast 😢 Actually I doesn't have a proper mood to update but I don't know why I keep writing this. However, let's try while listen to Seventeen's songs. So I gonna update according the questions I asked before which on August 2021. 1. Is Pandemic end? Yes and u already got the vaccine. right now we all living like a normal life but still some of them (u also ain sometimes) wearing a mask at outside.  2. Are u still jobless? Alhamdullilah Ain. You are now already working for 1 year++ as a florist. However, right now you are busy survey new job to get a new opportunity. It's okay, we just follow the flow ya. If ada rezeki, ada lah tu kita nak dapat kerja lain. 3. Are the government still under same politician? WEHHH I REALLY EXCITED TO SHARE THIS!! likee thanks to old Ain sebab tanya soalan ni. Al...

Didn't expect adulting can be a lonely journey for someone. Why I do feel lonely? Am I really a pitiful person? Is being single a sign of uselessness? How busy I am with work but at the end of the day I feel so sad and empty. I have my family beside me and supportive friends but why I choose to be sad at the night? Every morning I force myself to smile but it's getting fade. I hate to stay with people but once I am alone, I keep overthinking about life. Why I keep comparing myself with others? I keep fighting with myself. My mind full of voice that downgrade me a lot. Try to ignore it but ended up I crying. I eat well, I sleep well, I rest well but why I feel like I become a zombie. Breathing but I am not living. "What should I do with my life?" The question that keeps lingering in my mind. To be honest, I am happy right now. I would rather laugh, even though my day was hectic. But again, why the sadness covers me like a blanket? "Let's be happy" I keep ...

A random update about this year. A very short post I think. I want to differentiate what will happen next year with now. Is Pandemic already end? Are you still jobless? Are the government still under the same politician? Are you already find your happiness? Are you still overthinking? Have you start pay back the PTPTN? Are you still busy fangirling? Did WINNER renew their contract? Have you go hangout with your friend far from Seremban? Did you still have a problem to sleep at night? Did you still fan of SEVENTEEN // DAY6 // BTOB? Is there any new group you stan? Are you still spend your money at photocard? Are you collecting album now? Are you doing your diet nowadays? Did you fight with any of your friends? Did you have any negative thought more than you did this year? Are you still alive? that's all. let's meet again on 1 August 2022 maybe ✨

 Hello. I don't know what will this post about. Just rasa nak menaip while listen to sad songs. How am I doing right now? Just being a normal human. Kinda back to reality after being lived in fantasy for a long time. Being an adult now rasa macam tak percaya pulak. Struggled to find a job and a proper live. I remember how excited I am nak habis belajar after struggled teruk during that moments but lol baru sedar kehidupan ini tidak selalu indah. Dulu hadap laptop sambil nangis sebab buat fyp and assignments but now I am crying sebab job hunting. Tahap macam kalau nak give up pun, tak boleh because the live still got a long way to go. Bila meningkat dewasa ni, I imagined I will be more matured tapi sebenarnya tak. I can't control my emotions. Blaming myself almost all the time every single mistakes yang aku pernah buat. Yeah I learned from the mistakes to improve myself in the future but at the same time I can't move on with it. The fear keep surrounded me sampai rasa lemas....

The year that I wish for more happiness will happen to me I wish I will graduate on time with successful Get some new knowledge from my internship Experience with new people Try to get a fix job as I can Travel to some new place I have never been Create new memories with my friends "This year gonna be my year" I said before However all the wishes become a jokes now World War 3 almost happen Pandemic since March and didn't see when it will be stop My internship only happen for one month Convocation ? lol keep dreaming Traveling ? i.ma.gi.na.tion (insert SpongeBob's voice) A proper work ? back to reality ain Okay lah still something good happened this year First, submitted my final year project and Alhamdullilah I got a good result! I called it as "나의 애기 🐥" All the hardship I have done Crying for the whole night Giving up because overthinking too much Read back all my concern I wrote up at my ig stories Fuhh I am growing up After all, I am thankfu...