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Have a good day I hope it will be everyday But its okay if not I am still breathing This semester 2 quite hectic, mess, crazy and many more. Hello how can i describe my life at here? Oh to be honest i hate become adult. I can not breathing well when i am getting adult. Joy? Of course sleeping. After a few days, weeks or months can not get enough sleep to finish up all the assignment. Everyday i wish tomorrow will be skip but nah, the next day still hate me. Now i understand more the meaning of blood, sweats and tears (bruh i am not army). become adult make me feel like that. Cry like crazy because of grouping works. Sweat like a pig (i think) for submit the assignments. Blood? Not yet because not in medan perang. Aaaa i miss blogging. I miss to find or create my own template. I miss reading others blog. If i have an event in my university, i swear for myself that i will make a post about it. But free time = sleeping lah. Final exam right now but why not try to update it right?...

assalamualaikum and happy new year 😂 This year started with stressed a little bit because of final for sem 1. aaaa i kinda survive it right? 😂 Okay so this post not about my life but actually about random people. Who is random people? Well person that you do not know who but you met them once and sometime give an impact to your life. I am thinking about this people because when i feel stressed, i scroll my ig and sometime that people can make me happy again and release tension. For example, maysaa anak iman abdul rahim. Idk who are you gurl but your cuteness healing me 😘 An idol also can make me happy randomly tau. Such as btob. Their weirdness, dad jokes, noisy make me forgot my stressed when i feel i am not doing well in my life. Yeah i know family and friends can help me too but you know, this is sooo random people. Like how doh people you do not know can make you happy? I am so introvert even my friend said that i have an allergic to people (true doh, i can not talk to...

A dream An ambition "can you tell me what you want to be one day?" "tell your friends what is your dream" "please write your name and your ambition so i can record in my student's profile" you know what, i am so afraid with that question since primary school. i used to have a dream but not now. i do not know why that things happen. when i am getting older, my mind will blur when think about it. always pray hard for lect/teacher not asking me that kind of question because it is gonna take a few hours (or a year maybe) for me to reply it :') ended up gonna say i want to be a teacher (facepalm) hello??? me as a teacher??? even people keep asking something repeatly, gonna mad at them and ask them to solve it by themself (yes sorry because i am so selfish) but when i do the same things to people, i will feel guilty and thought they will think same things like me :') i used to have a dream when i was 11 years old which is i want to be a ...

in this age i feel i am old enough and i can not believe i challange myself in this age even i feel shocked with myself is this ain? the home person? the person that hate to challenge herself? the person always live in her imagination? the person only think about kpop? (sometime still do it 🙈) the person that always overthinking? wow so impress! i shook-ed! maybe people gonna think it is just a normal things but idk because sometime i did not understand with myself always afraid to do something even yes, still feeling afraid for everything but that have a little bit confident right now when i feel down i said to myself "just ignore it ain!" "that's your life!" "nobody care about you or if they talk bad about you, just ignore it" wow since when i can think like that?? the positive person? wow lol ok gonna list what i do in this age first, take a car license almost give up doh but think about my parents i try my ...

you know what the things i hate but sometime i do it? it is called 'Obsess'. what those mean? obsess with something useless but i enjoy it sometime and it's make me worry right now. i do not want this habit forever. i really do hate it but why?? why am i enjoying? please ain. give up with it. right now, with this age old enough (but... can i stay young forever 👉👈) obsess with many things. one of them, the dangerous one are 'SOCIAL MEDIA'. that things gave me more negative vibes right now. i think blogger also but nahh i really enjoy it but still i need to control it. why suddenly i say like that? ok let's me tell u girl. i do not know it is just me or other people have thought about it. first, instagram. yes i have instagram and i did not allow people who i do not know to follow me. because imma gonna overthinking when they check my ig feed. "oh did they gonna look at my feed?"   "will they ever think to like it or not?"   ...

i really enjoy listening a music. it is like a part of my life. everyday like wajib to listen on it. well this post im gonna talk about my favourite band that i enjoy their music. got this idea after listening some old songs. ok u can call me a "kpoppers" lah like that because all my playlist were a korean songs (but actually i hate people call me a kpoppers) but i still listen lah malay, english, indonesia and hindustan's songs (well the old one lah not the latest one) so now im gonna list it down the band/singer, why i like their songs (maybe some of them didnt have specific reason) and for how long i like them like that lah. oh btw ada yang lagu that randomly i like??? that songs bermain di minda tanpa sengaja 😌 BIGBANG they are like my first favourite kpop group ever that i still falling in love with them until now. (before this i like suju but cinta tak berpanjangan :') ) that time i thought my favourite genre was hip hop because enjoy their son...

this post maybe u guys disagree with me or wtv i just want to write what i want to say. its quite sensitive and fyi im not feminist. i kinda hate lah kan when some penceramah give a speech and mostly ayat dia hentam girl like ; "tahu kenapa perempuan byk dlm neraka? sbb byk kutuk sana sini" "awak perempuan jaga lah pakaian, tak malu ke lelaki tgk awak" "ni lah hobi perempuan, gossip sana sini" yes memang betul but still lelaki pun sama. i found many guys kutuk belakang, bukak aib diaorg, look so pervertly at the girls. when i was in high school,i walked alone that time and there were 2 guys talk about my bottom and i just wearing school uniform with tudung. takkan tu kau bernafsu bangg?? me jenis yg akan duduk alone bcs i want to look what people do or sometime want to live in my dreamland and that time ada sekumpulan pelajar lelaki duduk behind me and kutuk my friend's (perempuan) body. yes aku lemah that time. i have no voice to mad at...

This gonna be a short post When I was in high school I always " eewww"  kan makeup even ada lah jinak2 sikit like " ohh that lipstick look kinda cute " but still mcm a big no to put that look alike crayon in my lips bruhh in orchestra, we should do a makeup for performance and me (with my friends) sanggup lari dari cikgu sbb taknak makeup. kinda benci the girls (like penari) using too much makeup and bibir merah mcm makan samyang lak masuk lower 6, tgk my aunt's friend ada pouch with full of makeup and kadang2 curi pakai mcm bedak and try eyelashes curler but at last sepit mata sendiri :') so she saw me doing that (or i asking her smthng like that). after that she asked me " you wanna try this things? " and i said yes maybe (lol memory pls comeback) and now me , 20 years old can't stop talking about makeup and i obsessed with it. so this things normal kan ? sbb rasa serba salah bila ada member yg before this jinak2 pakai lipstick bu...

0329 am right now and i cant sleep. thats why i think want to do a new post after a long time maybe? so im gonna do a challenge (i think) that i do before on 2011. want to know what the difference of me between that year and this year. and yeahhh this post kinda cringey for u guys to read 🙈 WHAT WAS YOUR: 1. Last beverage : ais kosong 2. Last phone call : umi 3. Last text message : from hotlink 💅 4. Last song you listened to : blues - leehi 5. Last time you cry : yesterday HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice : no 7. Been cheated on : yass 8. Kissed someone and regretted it : nahh 9. Lost someone special : yes 10. Been depressed : aww everyday 11. Been drunk and threw up : no LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. black 13. white 14. red THIS YEAR HAVE YOU(2017): 15.Made a new friend: no 16.Fallen out of love: everyday bcs 임혀식 💕 17.Laughed until you cried : yes (thanks gag concert) 18.Met someone who changed you : yup! 19.Found out who your true friends : aw...

learn to less talk learn to more write penat bila mulut buka je susah nak tutup orang yang mendengar pun penat merepek itu yang jadi bila mulut tak berhenti bercakap bukan nak jadi pemalu takut perbualan jadi benda tidak berfaedah mengumpat menjadi satu kewajiban bila berborak dengan orang dikenali dosa bertambah pahala menghilang mula berbual benda faedah lama kelamaan jadi merapu lepas berbual baru rasa bersalah "bukan umpat , tapi nak cerita" tetapi menjadi satu umpatan yang boleh membawa ke arah fitnah tetapi tidak maknanya kena sentiasa tutup mulut tidak perlu menjadi pendiam hanya berdiam bila niat nak berbual perkara tak berfaedah menaip rasa perlu belajar terutama menaip/menulis dalam bahasa inggeris tulisan itu indah tetapi boleh membawa padah orang lain yang membaca mereka akan olah dengan cara sendiri kita berjenaka orang...