잘못했어
Oh to be here again meaning that I am back fall into the darkness. I thought being 29 years old, the life going to be smooth but it became disaster I think?
I don't know how to describe my life this year. Early Jan, I already set my mind what the possibilities gonna happen and I will make sure I can deal it without stress and face it with the strategies that I prepared. However, that's dream not made it 🥲
This year, I planning to do some side hustle because of the economy and my parents not working anymore. Almost everyday, I keep hearing the words "dah takde duit ni". Now, it become my motivation to work harder for my family because I don't want them see me as useless child. I planned with my colleagues what the best ideas to do to help the kids too and it still in the same field we working now. We do some research, look out for the pros and cons, think about the best material we can provide and more.
One month past, I've done the preparation and last Friday, I want to blast it through social media platforms. Unfortunately, the plan need to be cancel just because of the freaking selfish person. It's break my heart till now. I thought I am strong enough after I hear the explanation but ended up, every night I cry think about the mistreatment. It's break my heart when my supervisor crying while giving the explanation why this plan need to be cancel. I can understand how disappointed she is because she know how my colleagues excited for this class.
I don't know how to describe this feelings. Totally feel "tawar hati" with the company. I do love my kids, my colleagues but because of this issues, I need to find the better company. Suddenly I remembered wafa said if you're already more than 3 years with one company, it's time for you "jumping" another company. Before this, I can't understand her meaning but now, I do understand.
May there's another opportunity for me. Bismillah.
