빛

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I feel sad
I feel want to cry now
I don't know
Yeah
at first I feel jealous
but I should not think like that
Maybe Allah have a good plan for 4 of us
InsyaAllah
One day we will meet again
With a big smile
And warm hug

One of us , T
Went to others school for form 6
Last we met on spm results day
Miss her
Miss to bully her
Miss her voice that always talk about recess
Miss her annoying joke that make me feel want to punch her
Feel awkward when we all went to same school
But no her beside us
When people asked about her
We feel sad , miss
Many things we feel but don't know how to describe

Last night
Got text from L
Said that she got poli
And still don't know
She'll go or not
She gonna think properly
She want to go but feel don't want
I want to say
Please don't go
But I think that chance for her
To improve be a better person
I make a joke
"If u hate me,  just go"
Well actually I don't want her to go
Who gonna hold my purse all day?
Who gonna hug me now?
Who gonna see me cry now?

After sej class
S came to me
Whisper to me
That this week
Her last week at school
She'll go to pra diploma
I don't know what to say
I feel sad
But I laugh and said goodbye to her
Last period for today
I make a joke with her
But inside my heart
Want to scream and say please don't leave me alone here
Almost tear up in class
But put a big smile because don't want her know that I'm sad
Who gonna help me in bm?
Who gonna babble when I didn't go to school?
Who gonna mad together when hear thin people said that their fat?

If the world make u sad
Say my name whenever and wherever
I am 119 emergency for u
I'm only 5 minutes away

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