pessismitic

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 macam dah lama tinggalkan blog ni tetiba harini macam terdetik nak menaip. sebelum ni, guna blog untuk meluah but sekarang fasa yang pendam je. nak luah tapi rasa not reasonable or think that others punya problem more worst compared to me.

but I love how slowly I become more matured facing the world. even though, sometimes I do feeling down but its easily wash away once I wake up in the morning. so, aging is just another oppurtuniteies  for us growth wisely.

working life, I do feels that this year giving a lot of patience test to me. every single day I keep repeating myself I want to resign but of course not gonna do that. I love my job. I love every weekday meeting anak-anak soleh but nahh to face their attitude every day? feeling want to headbanging my head at the walls. sometimes rasa macam apa ye aku buat ni? nak mendidik tapi kesabaran rendah tapi I do enjoy they growing up. like I saw their pace from zero and now slowly wujud sifat kendiri dalam diri. tapi, ya Allah the journey to teach them tu sungguh lah mencabar. 

balik rumah, I keep reflecting myself betul ke ye aku nak teruskan perjuangan ini? am I worthy to teach them? am I put a lot of expectations to them? entah lah. I do love how my colleagues keep supporting me and I know, I am the one yang actually kena fight untuk jadi positif but kito ni jenis overthinking. suka fikir benda buruk dulu baru kejayaan.

okay lah sampai sini jelah. penat pulak nak menaip. masuk pukul 10 malam je, mata dah berat nak tidur. oh how I love myself right now. penat stress macam mana pun, tidur akan ku utamakan. byee

tengok lah ni anak-anak soleh saya hehe


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