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Didn't expect adulting can be a lonely journey for someone. Why I do feel lonely? Am I really a pitiful person? Is being single a sign of uselessness? How busy I am with work but at the end of the day I feel so sad and empty. I have my family beside me and supportive friends but why I choose to be sad at the night? Every morning I force myself to smile but it's getting fade. I hate to stay with people but once I am alone, I keep overthinking about life. Why I keep comparing myself with others? I keep fighting with myself. My mind full of voice that downgrade me a lot. Try to ignore it but ended up I crying. I eat well, I sleep well, I rest well but why I feel like I become a zombie. Breathing but I am not living. "What should I do with my life?" The question that keeps lingering in my mind. To be honest, I am happy right now. I would rather laugh, even though my day was hectic. But again, why the sadness covers me like a blanket? "Let's be happy" I keep

A random update about this year. A very short post I think. I want to differentiate what will happen next year with now. Is Pandemic already end? Are you still jobless? Are the government still under the same politician? Are you already find your happiness? Are you still overthinking? Have you start pay back the PTPTN? Are you still busy fangirling? Did WINNER renew their contract? Have you go hangout with your friend far from Seremban? Did you still have a problem to sleep at night? Did you still fan of SEVENTEEN // DAY6 // BTOB? Is there any new group you stan? Are you still spend your money at photocard? Are you collecting album now? Are you doing your diet nowadays? Did you fight with any of your friends? Did you have any negative thought more than you did this year? Are you still alive? that's all. let's meet again on 1 August 2022 maybe ✨

 Hello. I don't know what will this post about. Just rasa nak menaip while listen to sad songs. How am I doing right now? Just being a normal human. Kinda back to reality after being lived in fantasy for a long time. Being an adult now rasa macam tak percaya pulak. Struggled to find a job and a proper live. I remember how excited I am nak habis belajar after struggled teruk during that moments but lol baru sedar kehidupan ini tidak selalu indah. Dulu hadap laptop sambil nangis sebab buat fyp and assignments but now I am crying sebab job hunting. Tahap macam kalau nak give up pun, tak boleh because the live still got a long way to go. Bila meningkat dewasa ni, I imagined I will be more matured tapi sebenarnya tak. I can't control my emotions. Blaming myself almost all the time every single mistakes yang aku pernah buat. Yeah I learned from the mistakes to improve myself in the future but at the same time I can't move on with it. The fear keep surrounded me sampai rasa lemas.

The year that I wish for more happiness will happen to me I wish I will graduate on time with successful Get some new knowledge from my internship Experience with new people Try to get a fix job as I can Travel to some new place I have never been Create new memories with my friends "This year gonna be my year" I said before However all the wishes become a jokes now World War 3 almost happen Pandemic since March and didn't see when it will be stop My internship only happen for one month Convocation ? lol keep dreaming Traveling ? i.ma.gi.na.tion (insert SpongeBob's voice) A proper work ? back to reality ain Okay lah still something good happened this year First, submitted my final year project and Alhamdullilah I got a good result! I called it as "나의 애기 🐥" All the hardship I have done Crying for the whole night Giving up because overthinking too much Read back all my concern I wrote up at my ig stories Fuhh I am growing up After all, I am thankfu

23rd January 2006 I got my second little brother. You are so precious to me. Everyday I wish I can hug you. You should know how happy I am to see you. You were tiny, your skin not in a good condition before and you know what, I am so scared when you in incubator. I was young but already know how scared of losing someone. Oh, that's just overthinking. You are doing well right now. Writing this after you talked how you feel being the youngest. How you hate when mom and dad didn't like you do. How hard to get a good result but you rather to play a soccer instead of study. "Why I can not do what I like?" "Can you guys stop nagging at me ?" "I know what should I do, stop mad at me?" "Why abang keep angry at me but I didn't do anything wrong?" "Kakak you are so noisy, stop it" You are growing up, my dear. I know how you feel and I am sorry because I keep mad at you just because you are in puberty. Whe

Hello! I want to share about sign language class that I joined before under YES alumni. Well this programme been introduced by Huda because her cousin one of the member of YES so she asked me to join or not since I will do my final year project about this topic. So I take this opportunity to learn more about it. This class happened on 200419 and yes it's already late for me to share. sorry! I just realized I want to share about this event before. The class been organized at around KL which I don't remember at all where it is 🤣 The participants only less than 10 people and both of us took evening session because afraid we can't arrive at that place if we take morning session. One of the moment when we are on the way to the venue is both of us took wrong train and realized it after 5-6 station. That time we just laughed only even we are already late because we know how silly we are :') Okay the best things more, after arrived mrt station at there, we should use